I am reducing!

I joined Weight Watchers last week, so today was my first weigh in. I lost 4.2 lbs. I am so excited. I have struggled with my weight, and have done weight watchers in the past. It really works if you stick to it, just like any program. So this time I am focusing on staying with it. So you will be seeing less of me in the future.

No More

We have been TTC for the past 5 months. I have two beautiful boys, and after 6 years, we decided to try for another one. Just one more time. I was at ease with the decision, and wanted it so bad.

Over the holidays, I got really sick and ended up in the ER, total Dejavu. I looked at my husband, as I hadn't been that sick since I was prego with my youngest 6 years ago. And we both new we couldn't do it again. It broke my heart, but we both knew it couldn't happen. As I sat there, with the IV hooked up to me, I felt anger, sadness, and relief all at the same time.

Anger because I just wanted to be normal to have a normal pregnancy with normal morning sickness. Anger at HG because I knew I couldn't do it again. I couldn't put my body threw that, my kids, my husband, my family. I was totally down for 3 months last time, and on meds the rest of the pregnancy, and who knows what it would be like again. Adam and Alex were so worried about me, they kept calling while we were at the ER. I realized I couldn’t do it. I am going to enjoy the two gifts I was given. I have nothing but respect for those women who are going unto another pregnancy with HG. It is a huge sacrifice, and no one else can understand unless they have been threw it.

Sadness, for a moment. But the pain I was in, helped me to see that I have two wonderful sons, and That I am going to make sure they know they are loved, and put all my energy into them.

Relief when the nurse came and told me I wasn't pregnant. I knew it would be over soon. I looked at Adam, and said I think we need to stop trying and he said I think so too.


It is sad that this illness keeps us from having more kids, and I know that no one else will understand this decision unless you have been threw HG. So many women get morning sickness, but HG is so different.

Somethings just happen. I don't know why they happen, why some woman get HG, why people get cancer, or why things happen to kids that should never happen. I know God has a plan for everything, we also have the power of free will. He doesn't control us, but he can make the best out of the worst situation.

Sorry if this was alittle TMI. This is me.

Sick

I have been sick since Christmas, I have an infection, and in alot of pain. Not doing too much of anything. My whole head is hurting, my ear, my jaw. Just yuky. I am on antibiotics, and pain meds, so I will blog more when I am feeling well.

We had a wonderful Christmas!

We had a wonderful Christmas. It was great to spend time with my family, and really take time to enjoy Christmas, and remembering what the real reason for the season was. We went to our annual Christmas Eve Party with my family, then to my parents, and then back home to get ready for Santa to come. The next morning, the boys woke at 6:30 am (thanks to my alarm going off). Little Adam told me that he made a promise to Jesus, that he would read two pages of his bible before he opened any gifts, and he did that. He sat and read his bible, as his brother opened gifts. He read to us, and it felt so good to spend that morning thinking of him.

Mary Did You Know

On Wednesday night we had a Christmas service at church, I always look forward to this. It's a Family service. The Children's Dept sang some Christmas Songs for us. Jenn and Dee did a great Job with this, and the kids were awesome.
Here is a picture of Alex singing in the program.

My oldest son, Adam is in a group called the Edge, it's a group for 5th and 6th graders. They performed a Drama to Mary Did You Know. I love this song. It gives you a different aspect of a sacrifice. This is a mothers view.

Mary did you know that your baby boy would some day walk on water?

Mary did you know that your baby boy would save our sons and daughters?

Did you know that your baby boy has come to make you new?

This child that you've delivered, will soon deliver you.

Mary did you know that your baby boy would give sight to a blind man?

Mary did you know that your baby boy would calm a storm with his hand?

Did you know that your baby boy has walked where angels trod?

And when your kiss your little baby, you have kissed the face of God.

Oh Mary did you know---The blind will see, the deaf will hear, the dead will live again.The lame will leap, the dumb will speak, the praises of the lamb---.

Mary did you know that your baby boy is Lord of all creation?

Mary did you know that your baby boy would one day rule the nations?

Did you know that your baby boy is heaven's perfect Lamb?

This sleeping child you're holding is the great

--I--- AM---.

My Son, as Jesus in the Drama. As I watched the Edge perform this it reminded me of that great sacrifice, Jesus wasn't just a sacrifice, He was the greatest sacrifice, a King, Lord of Lords, Prince of Peace, He was a son, he had a mother and father. I know how much I love my kids, and I know that God loves Jesus and us more than that. It's the greatest love. More than anything we have ever known. Could I sacrifice my child. The great thing is that I don't have to think about that, because of a sacrifice that was made for us. It all started with the birth of a child. A little baby, who did what babies do. But he grew to be a great man, I can only imagine how that made Mary feel watching him. She got to see him in a way that we can't imagine. I know I look at my boys different than anyone else. Everything they do is amazing.

2 Days Until Christmas

There is 2 Days until Christmas (In my World).

Angela

Update

I got all my cloths put away. Hip Hip Horay!

Work Christmas Lunch

Today at work we had a potluck, and gag gift exchange. Here are some pics. It was alot of fun. Some of the gifts were a Mr. Potato Head, a toy gun, a pooing Santa, and the gift I brought and took home was an Easy Button.

Make a scrapbook - it's easy!

Destination: Florida

My sister is moving to Florida in Early February. She has a great calling on her life, and she is going there as the next step in this calling. She is going to open a Christian Home for teenage mothers here in Louisville. My sister and I were both teenage mothers, and were very blessed to have a very supportive family. It is one of the toughest things a teenage girl can go threw, and it's a blessing all at once. A new life. My sisters goal is for these girls to have a safe place to live while they finish high school. She is going to teach them Christs love for them. It's hard being a teenage mother, wondering how God could still love you if you don't know the extent of his love. She is going to provide a place that these girls can build a foundation, not only spiritually, but also with there child threw parenting classes and other services.

There is nothing like that here, but there are several in Florida, which is why they are moving. She has an internship at a home in Florida were she will learn the details of what her vision is going to take, and she will be working and finishing her college degree all at the same time.

These next two years are going to be tough. I love my sister, and she is always there for me. She will still be a phone call away, but it won't be the same. It would be selfish of me to ask her to stay here when I know what she is trying to accomplish. I can't wait until she opens the doors to the home. We are a very close family, and my parents are having a hard time with this, so keep them in your prayers. And pray for Jacqueline, Adrian, Starr and Adriana. It's not going to be easy. She has a lot of hard work ahead of her, and it will be hard on them being away from family. So pray that her vision stays fresh in her mind, and that God grants her strength to finish what she has begun.

Working Dog

So my husband is off, and that means late nights. He takes advantage of being able to stay up late. I am always up late, but this week I am going to work at 5am, so that I can leave earlier to spend time with my family. So last night when I went to bed he was watching TV, flipping threw channels. So I cuddled up to him and tried to go to sleep. So needless to say, I couldn't go to sleep, especially while he was tapping his fingers on my back to a beat. And he kept saying O, look at that babe.

So I was laying there at 12:30 pm, and he flipped to a Dog competition. As we laughed at a really furry Dog (I mean this is the fluffiest Dog you have ever seen), we noticed a Boxer. We can notice them from a mile away. It's kind of like a car. You get a car, and before you got that car you didn't really notice how many of that car was out there driving around before. But once you get the car, you see them everywhere. Well that's how it is with our Dogs as well. OK, not to get back on the subject. Adam noticed they had the Boxer in the Working Dog category. He brought it my attention. He said what do they do? I said I don't know. He said, "Man, ours don't do anything, I want my money back." I don't' know if it was really that funny, or if it's just cause I am going on like 3.5 hours of sleep.

We are going to see, I am legend today, so we will see if I can make it in a Dark room without falling a sleep.

Lesson Learned: I now know why my husband didn't want a TV in the bedroom for the past 3 years, while I begged him for one.

Pics of my Dogs doing nothing.

Portraits

We had our family pictures done last night, and it was so much fun. We took Liala and Trinidad with us, and that was an experience. We got one family picture with them, and I love it. It was well worth all the time it took to get them to sit still. We got some great pictures of the boys. They are the most handsome boys in my world.

Alex

“No matter how loud, No matter how silly. Giggle Ha Ha, Snicker Hee Hee. There's no laugh as cute as yours is to me.” - Crystal Dawn Perry

Adam

"You cannot catch a child's spirit by running after it; you must stand still and for love it will soon itself return." - Arthur Miller

I think my husband is trying to tell me something.

I am not the best at putting my cloths away. I know, shame on me. They are folded, but they are stacked infront of my dresser. They kindof stay there a while, or until I get in the cleaning mood, which doesn't happen much. So last night I got home, and saw that ontop of my pile, he bought me new hangers. Hmmm. What do you think he is trying to tell me.

God love him.
Angela

I decorated my desk for Christmas.

A little Jealous

I am alittle jealous of my husband right now. This is his last week to work until the new year. So he has off a little over 2 weeks.

So babe, I am a little jealous, but I still love ya.

Little Adam saw my blinkie that said I gots da baby fever. And he said he has da sister fever. Big Adam told him he wasn't going to get one, and Little Adam in all his wisdom told him, with Man all things are impossible, and with God all things are possible. Gotta love it.

My husband is so wonderful!

I am sure there are a lot of us that say that we have the best husband in the world, but I can honestly say that I have the best husband that I can ever ask for! I think we all have that special someone that is a perfect fit. Adam and I are so different.

I meet Adam a little over 12 years ago. I was a sophomore and he was a Junior in High School. We became friends, and to me he was my best friend. We were both dating other people, but secretly we wanted to be dating each other. Finally in January of 2006 I dumped my boyfriend and in true high school style, started dating Adam the same day. We have been together ever since.

I was born in Henry County, Kentucky, and he is from Chicago, IL. A county girl, and a city boy. You should hear him always correcting me when I say y'all, He says, Babe, it's You all, not y'all.

Music: My #1 pic is Country, and Christian. I really love all music, it just depends on what mood I am in. Adam likes Rap, Hip Hop and R&B. When he cleans he listens to Rap, or Hip Hop, and when I clean I listen to Country music. That brings me to another topic. Cleaning.

Cleaning: I am not the neatest person. Adam is!! He likes for everything to be in it's place. I don't like for things to be dirty, but I have so many other things I would rather do than clean. Pretty much, I would rather do anything than clean. When I first meet Adam in high school, before we even started dating. I figured that he was a clean freak. (I use that word loosely, he is not to the extreme of the towels hanging a certain way, or the cans facing a certain way. ) He always did chores on Thursday, and that has pretty much remained the same. He is just so awesome. I think that is why God put us together. Were I fall short, Adam steps in and visa versa. I tell Adam, that is one reason God gave him to me.

Another thing that is a little freaky. We think a lot alike. I will say something that has nothing to do with anything the we were talking about or doing, and Adam will say he was thinking the exact same thing. Sometimes we will say the same thing at the same time.

Other than that, he just makes it fun. We have our own sense of humor that we share. We have come along way, from teenage parents, to were we are today, still trying to figure this parenting thing out. But we both really do love it. We didn't do things traditionally, and have grown up together, but I have said all along that I prayed we would grow together and not grow apart. I truly believe we have grown together.

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Angela

Alex Says....

Alex said he felt a beap in his neck. I told him it was his hic-cups. He insisted that it wasn't. I said maybe it's your heartbeat. He said...ewww, your heart is in your neck.